Foreword
Preface
1 The Women’s Shelter (1997)
2 Nathalie’s Childhood (1984–2001)
3 First Baby and First Trip (2002–2003)
4 The End of a Dream (2003–2005)
5 I’m Coming! (2005–2006)
6 Initiation into Consular Affairs (2006)
7 Gearing Up for the Fight (2008–2009)
8 Meanwhile, in Saudi Arabia … (2008)
9 A Baby Comes into the Storm (2008–2009)
10 Impressive Allies (2009)
11 My Struggle, a Way of Life (2009–2010)
12 The Ongoing Saga of Saeed’s Visa (2009–2012)
13 Pain and Misery (2013–2016)
14 Who Is Saeed? (2001–2019)
15 Taking Up the Struggle Again (2017)
16 My Final Trip to Saudi Arabia (2018–2019)
Conclusion
Epilogue
Afterword
Acknowledgements
Appendix 1
Appendix 2
Appendix 3
Appendix 4
Appendix 5
Appendix 6
Appendix 7
Appendix 8
Notes
About the Author

Canadian Nathalie Morin's four children cannot leave Saudi Arabia without exit visas signed by Nathalie’s abusive husband. Her mother chronicles her decades-long struggle to bring her daughter and four grandchildren home to safety in Montreal.

Johanne Durocher fights to free her daughter and four grandchildren from a nightmarish life of abuse and poverty in Saudi Arabia.

In 2001, Nathalie Morin was just seventeen when she met Saeed, a Saudi man who claimed to be studying in Montreal. She fell in love with him, but soon after she gave birth to their son, Saeed was deported back to his country of origin. Struggling as a single mother and wanting Samir to know his father, Nathalie travelled to Saudi Arabia to reunite her family, confident that she would be able to return to Canada whenever she wanted. But a trap was closing around her — her partner turned out to be authoritarian and violent, the abuse continuing until their last child was born.

According to Saudi law, Nathalie was considered married and under Saeed’s legal authority. All too often she was shut away in her own house, a place of hellish poverty. In 2005, Johanne Durocher, Nathalie’s mother, began her decades-long struggle to get Nathalie back home to Canada with her four children: Samir, Abdullah, Sarah, and Fowaz. While Nathalie is allowed to return on her own, her children cannot leave because of a travel ban imposed by the Saudi government. And Nathalie will not leave without them.

Johanne’s relentless fight for her family has garnered the support of several members of the provincial and federal governments, activists, and NGOs, including Amnesty International, who considers Nathalie to be a survivor of gender-based violence.

Johanne Durocher grew up in Montreal’s South Shore. The mother of three children, she is now retired. For eighteen years, the fight to liberate Nathalie, Samir, Abdullah, Sarah, and Fowaz has been at the heart of her life.